Could this quote be any more true? It's true on a broad level in terms of you waking up one day and finding that your kids are now adults, but it's also true on a simple level in terms of how quickly a bad week can turn itself around. This Sunday at church they gave a sermon on Parenting. It was powerful and insightful. I cried. At the end I looked at Mark and said, "We are totally screwing up--we're losers!" He put his arm around me and said, "There are certainly some things we can take from this sermon and do better, but I don't think you're giving us any credit at all." He was right, and I am PMS-ing.
For me this means an extra sensitive week with increased anxiety. My cousin and I were discussing the difficulty of being in this "space" last night and how it's so hard to get out of your head with all the self doubt. But the thing is--it only lasts a week so you just have to get through it. Somebody once told me, "These are just feelings and if you break it down to that, it's not so scary because feelings always pass." It's true...everything changes.
So here I sit this morning in my quiet house with a cup of coffee. The kids are all still sleeping, it's raining outside and I get to write. Gratitude! My girlfriend Kristi from our Small Group at church asked me to photograph her newborn baby, Eva this afternoon. What an absolute honor!! My mom said my dad would be "bursting his buttons with pride." :) I am very excited about this and also a smidge nervous. Tomorrow I leave for NYC to attend the Blog'Her Convention. Woo-Hoo!! I can't even believe I get to go this year--it doesn't seem real. My sister in law, Marcela surprised me by having Tool Studios make me the cutest business cards with my Blog name, logo and contact info. It was SO thoughtful!! I hadn't even thought about needing those. Duh? My BFF Allie is meeting me in NYC. She's not a Blogger but she's going to stay with me and take me out on the town at the end of each work day. Doing NY with Allie is like doing NY with Carrie Bradshaw and I'm not exaggerating! The girl is talking about taking me to things I've never even heard of...a hip new "Speakeasy." What? I'm sure I'll have some good stories when I get back. And the Blog'Her convention--I don't even know where to start. I'll be listening to Martha Stewart, Katie Couric, Christy Turlington Burns, Soledad O'Brien and Malaak Compton-Rock speaking to ME. Insane! My hope ofcourse is to meet the fabulous women Bloggers I follow...Anna from An Inch of Grey, Stefanie Wilder Taylor from Baby on Bored, Wendi Aarons from Wendi Aarons, Tanis Miller from Attack of the Redneck Mommy and Glennon Melton from Momastery. Fingers crossed!! I will be home on the 6th and hopefully equipped to give you a bigger, badder Blog. Thank you SO much for reading and supporting me. Love you all!!
P.S. OMG!!! I just read this on the Blog'Her website:
Today we are honored to announce that President Barack Obama will address the BlogHer '12 audience at 4:30PM Thursday, August 2, via live video feed. We will gather in the Grand Ballroom at the New York Hilton to hear from the president live, and understand why he has chosen to make this rare conference appearance.